You are prepared to realize something. You arm yourself with a decision you have already taken. You are aware of the fact that you are on the right way. Your time and energy are now focused on a single direction.
A detachment of the exterior world. Me and myself in a world, in which I want to escape from everyday`s tasks. Canvas, paints brushes, the easel, and a multitude of colors: some of them are warm, others cold. I prepare everything comparing to the presentation of a lecture. I put all of them carefully next to me in a chaos only controlled by me.